The act of getting
yourself out into the world is such an exhilarating experience that it brings a
high. Even if you are just presenting in front of the class you feel this
shaking, a fear of the unknown reactions yet an excitement that your words will
impact someone with a feeling. Pouring yourself out onto the reader/listener is
an action that you have to ponder over and proceed with slowly, carefully.
These are your words; you want your audience to understand exactly what you are
going through. This is why Annie Ernaux in "Simple Passion" proceeds
with such delicacy, talking about writing in the midst of this passionate love
affair. This allows the reader to get a sense of not just the actions going
into the story but also the emotions and careful thoughts that we undergo when
making life choices. "Simple Passions" explains Ernaux's feelings by
both talking about her feelings in the process of the love affair and also by having
another dialog about her writing through the book.
Throughout her progress in writing "Simple
Passions" Ernaux stops, practically stumbling into an almost apologetic
excuse for her catharsis. This periodic stopping not only keeps the reader on
their toes but also gives them a moment to analyze her emotions in a
non-passionate form. This way any reader, even a sociopath can catch what she
is really hinting at in her writing. This is especially prevalent in a particular
stop when she explains her writing saying, "Quite often I felt I was
living out this passion in the same way I would have written a book, the same
determination to get every single scene right, the same minute attention to
detail." (Ernaux, 20). In this sentence she explains not only what she is
feeling in this passion, but also why she is writing this book in a halting
manner. I took from this sentence that she was saying, "bear with me, I'm
just trying to get everything exactly right".
Another key to her dialog about writing was her
thoughts about individuality. Our perception of individuality is so obscure.
Most of us want to stand out and not be a part of the crowd but how do we do
that? There are over 7 billion people on this Earth and yet are so sure in our
belief that no one else has experienced the same emotions. How many times has a
poor psychiatrist probably heard the worlds, "no one understands me"?
This obscure perception of individuality continually occurs during Ernaux's
writing. She bounces between talking about how different and intense her love
affair was to her talking about the women who expressing similar passions and
watching movies where she could place herself as one of the characters. She
seems to crave this individuality by keeping the secret of her love affair to
herself hiding it from the world. Yet when she talks to these passionate women
with their desires, she feels a hatred for them and the thought that her
passion could be so dull as to be common. "When I continually responded to
the other person by saying 'me too, it's the same for me, I did that too.'
suddenly seemed futile, removed from the reality of my own passion. Rather,
something was lost in these outbursts" (Ernaux, 14). This story is of her
having a large outburst which is in its own way telling the audience that they
are no different, they can have their passion but it is only the same as
everyone else’s. By writing this love story she is telling the world that they
are no different. We attempt to maintain our individuality while trying to find
a good book with characters that we can relate to.
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